ultimate dream

I dont wanna lose you guys.

2010-09-04T01:33:00.000-07:00

Hi, its been a while since i blog. And eventually it has been awhile since i saw those 4 beautiful girlfriends. Girls, im sorry for whatever happened. Im truly sorry. I cant bear to lose you guys. And iv never thought i would. Il clear the mess. I promise. Please forgive me. I miss us so much. No matter what happen next, im thankful for once we were friends. The best of friends. And as for GF, thank you for being there for me. Im gonna go around telling all im single too. I hope you get what i meant. Special congrats to princess. Will try my best to be there tomorow:)

PHOTO, AKU SUKE:)

2010-07-20T09:12:00.000-07:00

AKU JUST SUKE NI PHOTO. TAKDE MAKNE PON.

LOL

Every person is a new door to a different world.

CRAP.HAHA

smile :)

2010-07-20T09:05:00.000-07:00

Top 10 Reasons to Become a Nurse

10. Pays better than McDonald's (though the hours aren't as good.)

9. Fashionable shoes and sexy uniforms.
8. Needles: 'tis better to give than to receive.
7. Confidence in reassuring patients that all bleeding stops ... eventually.
6. Opportunity to expose yourself to rare, exotic, and exciting new diseases.
5. Interesting aromas.
4. Courteous and infallible doctors who always leave clear orders in perfectly clear handwriting.

3. Admit it, it's a lot easier than med school.
2. Celebration of holidays with all your friends ... at work.
1. Comfort in the knowledge that most of your patients survive no matter what you do to them.

ESPECIALLY FOR GF AND IZYBABY. HAHA. I SAW THIS ON E NET. I FIND IT HUMOROUS.

LOL

SO SICK

2010-07-20T08:24:00.000-07:00

Inside each and every one of us is a person that no one knows.

A person, should you take the time to look,is waiting to be discovered,

Wanting you to take notice.

Take a few minutes every day and sit down to chat to this person.

Who knows what you may learn:)

I'm super SICK. There's something wrong with my ribcage or something.

It's super PAINFULL! Mother.F!

I guess i shall stop SMOKING ,OR SHOULD I NOT?

lol.

AND this irritating cough took years to go away!

GF. Aku SAKET. PAMPER AKU PLEASE.

lol.

HUMOROUS

2010-07-19T03:12:00.000-07:00

I blame my mother for my poor sex life.

All she told me was, 'the man goes on top and the woman underneath'.

For three years my wife and I slept on bunk beds.

- Joan Rivers

i love my past too much. so FUTURE get lost!

2010-07-16T13:52:00.001-07:00

"Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards."
Kahlil Gibran

MY BAD GIRL

2010-07-16T11:57:00.000-07:00

A BREK UP just after a week of relationship?

LIKE HUH?

SHE'S not the problem, i am:)

To a friend of mine, THANK YOU.

FOR?

MAKING ME COME BACK TO MY SENSE.

HMM, HOW ABOUT PRECIOUS?

DEEPLY TRULY SORRY FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART.

AM I NOT FAITHFUL?

WELL, i used to be. Too faithful till i want nobody but HER.

WHY NOT NOW?

Reason 1: Iv forgetten how to.

Reason 2: I was afraid. Afraid of getting hurt like before.

Reason 3: I alwes see unwanted names on your recent used numbers:)

YOU can, why can't myself?

Like you know what i mean?

lol

Think like an adult?

Am i like not?

Y.A.T.A.S.S.H.A

Who the hell is this person?

She's my GF for god sake!

Hey sweet, i love you damn. I'm sorry for those shit.

I'M forgiven.

We're even. Starting anew together.

WELCOME TO MY LIFE

AND btw it's not a game plan.

If it was, i'll love to win for sure:)

Like i've said before, YAN can be super nice. He can be a farking asshole too.

Things won't be like how it used to be.

People change and I CHANGE.

AFTERALL, I'M JUST A HUMAN BEING TRYING TO SHOW SOME LOVE

Rest assured, i will ammend my mistake.

Fucking mark my words.

AMIN.

FEELING GAY

2010-07-12T13:58:00.000-07:00

A kiss is

a lovely trick designed by nature

to stop speech when words become

superfluous.

love is back

2010-07-12T12:05:00.000-07:00

The RING is finally back on my finger.

PRECIOUS, please give me some time to learn how to LOVE again.

JULY BABYYYYYY!

2010-06-28T06:28:00.000-07:00

I JUST CAN'T WAIT FOR JULY TO COME BEBEH!
SO F**KING EXCITED.

AND AND AND ! FOR THE LAST FEW DAYS I HAD FUN WITH PRECIOUS.
KARAOKE, JB, KAKAK HOUSE. BABIESS. INCREDIBLY CRAZY!

wait and see..

2010-06-07T20:32:00.000-07:00

I'VE MADE UP MY MIND.

-LOVE YAN

loves struck when you least need it.

2010-05-30T21:49:00.000-07:00

I'm not sure whether it's relevant for me to blog. I duno whether it's even a need for me to tell the world. Sometimes i just feel that it's better to bottle up feelings than sharing.

Staring into empty spaces, not knowing what to do. One moment i felt that i've move on, the next thing i knew the past haunting me.

time out pls.

2010-05-30T16:18:00.000-07:00

MY MIND SOARS ON PAPER AIRPLANES. FUCK. GOD ABANDONED ME.A NEVER ENDING SERIES OF MARVELOUS MISADVENTURE. Maybe a time machine would be nice.I guess im allergic to reality and too compelled with fictions.

SPARING A THOUGHT FOR OTHERS MIGHT JUST KILL. TRYING TO LOVE IS DISASTER. WISHING BADLY I WAS SUPERMAN. OR EVEN HANCOCK. HUEVER WITH THOSE FUCKING SUPER POWERS. FREEZING TIME, AND BEING ABLE TO RUN.

I JUST FELT LIKE SHEDDING TEARS. I JUST FELT SO DOWN, FALLEN.

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO HURT, BUT THE TRUE FACTS IS DONE THAT.

MR MIND, CAN YOU JUST MAKE THAT FUCKING DECISION LIKE RIHT NOW?

im not choosing her after you.

2010-05-20T04:35:00.000-07:00

Hello. War will start again like real soon. Kethibash, please get this im not choosing her after you. No matter what i guess she understand how close i am with ya. But we can't be together rite. You know that .

And honestly speaking, i guess i fell for that girl u called bitch. There's nothing to compaare. You are you. AND she is her. YOU GOT UR GD AND BAD POINT. SO DOES SHE.

Y can't we be like super close friend , like you and him? I can give you nuthing. I'm sorry if i hurt you in any ways. I love and care for you as a friend. Initially i want more from her. You're wonderful yatata, i apreciate that. I didnt change up till today.

Only, i fell in love with a girl. I'm sorry. I told ya, u'l find a better person than me. Remember, sometime ago u said this, we gna share prob n stuff even if we're attached. REMEMBER?

Why a sudden change in you?

You're a nice gal. cummon. i promise we'll still be close. and we will. And to yat's fren, if u tink im mean, im sorry. i dint mean to hurt ur fren. i just felt its not wrong for me to have a new love. I didnt say no to her, when she starts contacting others. I really do care bout her, n i cant c her cry. but i can't stop this feeling of love.

p/s: yatata, u'll alwaes be my close fren.

And sunshine, i guess i made u wait fer long. i'm sorry . i guess im cruel lik u said. i hurt 2 gals at 1 go. but i guess. i really fell 4 u this time. im positive over it. i noe u nid time to trust me again. its okay. i'l still be that iritattink bastard.

So long.

I'm still me. No matter what happen.

I think i'm in love with that movie.

2010-04-29T02:58:00.000-07:00

Thanks to Inah, i knew that movie exist. haha. FORGETTING SARAH MARSHAL. I guess thats how i spell it. Erm, i guess it reminds me sumhow that i'm trying to forget someone so badly. BUT I JUS COULDN'T. haha.

p/s: sunshine,please forgive me. Ok2, il find you that mee kua or maybe satay.

i can't deny that LOVE is beautiful

2010-04-29T00:43:00.000-07:00

I thought i was in love. But nah. I'm lying to myself man. You're still there . You still there with me. Hey babe, i miss you. I know you're in love. You know what , how much you want him to be yours, that's how much i want you to be mine. Even more i guess.

I'm comfortable with sunshine. But i'm too comfortable with you. I guess it doesnt matter to you rite. haha. And sunshine, im deeply sorry for whatever ive said. it's just a random quest, i'm not ready to love myself. But you're nice. Real nice. And i dun wanna lose that frenship. I'm very sorry.

N yatata, can you just force yourself and say you miss me? haha

AND I MISS THAT FOREHEAD KISH . OH SHIT.

I'm blessed with beautiful friends.

2010-04-29T00:02:00.000-07:00

Hey John's not here. He's busy with school. Congrats, U got into POLY:) Everyone is busy with their own life. BUT eh god, i guess you're just fine after all. No love, but you gave a bunch of beautiful people that i should be thankful for. 8years but still guing. Inah's one happy bitch today. Mr halimatul sadiahh's back. Happy for you girlfriend:) Your long wait ended eventually.

smile.

For syasya, if you read this. We're worried for you. Super dee dooper. We tried not to talk bout it often, cause we know you dun like it. BUT how hard we tried not to care, we still can't. Eh cummon, you're part of us damn. You promised you'll be up kicking soon. You're taking a longg time my frend. Hey Ice, Inah, Izy and myself misses you aite. You're not alone babe.

I wanto to think 21, i wanna be 21.

2010-04-28T23:05:00.000-07:00

Things are getting a bit dusty in here. Helloo. Kinda busy lately, busy with nutink i guess. OH YA! Yan's 21, hmm like 2mthss ago? haha. N YES, Kethibash was there on my birthday n so are my wonderful ladies. Beautiful. But i still don't agree Alice in Wonderland is nice. Crap. Yawnnn!

N guess wad, i saw someone so unexpectedly. Trust me my heart was jumping jumping. haha.Nice to see you again preety head:)

Resolution: I wanna be 21. I wanna think like one 2. Damn. First please get a stable jobb YAN pls. Eh god, im asking for helpp here. Amin. Smile.

i dun wanna be 21!

2010-03-04T18:56:00.000-08:00

Guing 21 in few hours time. Does that really matter. It doesnt make a different.

WISHHHHHHHHH WISHHHHHHH WISHHHHHHHH!

PLEASE GO OUT WITH ME TOMORROW KETHIBASH.

2010-02-15T21:26:00.001-08:00

She's ready to love. BUT WHEN WILL I BE?
OH GOD:(

hatred.

2010-02-15T19:44:00.000-08:00

I havent got the time to update. Things has been crazy as usual. haha . More crazzy:) Tak abes2 ar Yan ek. haha. what to do. No next chapter. Always stucked.

Spending time with my beautiful girlfriends were awesome. Laughters as usual. I havent been updating bout our outings lately. Im too lazy to do so.

Hey girls, when will be our next drinking party? haha. Nuraisyah Bte Amran next perforrmance. hahahaha.

Haix. Im bored. I wanna do something diff. Not wake up in the morning, go to work. Work my ass up. Sit. Smoke. Time to go back. Lepak. Smoke. Fight with kethibash . Go back. Sleep. The next day the same old farking thing. Repaeted routine every single day. Im sick and tired of all this.

The thing i most hate doing everyday is fighting with kethibash. Fuck man. We're damn getting far apart. My bad. My fault. Im not sre why its so dificult for me to jus let u go. I just realise that i still need to jus to stand on my two feet. And why is that? She's being mean. And i dun hate her at all. why? Vdae suck. I think this year suck big time. You won't b there on all the special occasion.

Im goin 21 soon. Im so afraid of that day. Iv told my friend. 6.3.2010. The scariest day of my life. 4yrs back, im still dat malu2 person trying to get u hooked up. Now im still that iritatink sum1 trying to do the same thing.

What will happen on that day? haha. Will yan be smiling or just shut up the entire day? haha.

The voting starts now.

haha.

OH GOD. I MISS YOU BADLY

Chao. im bored.

what if?

2010-01-18T22:16:00.000-08:00

YATATA!!!!!!!!!!!! i WANNA SAE I LOVE AND MISSH YOU SO BAD DAMN!!!!!

PLEASE PLEASE..

2009-12-23T03:39:00.000-08:00

I WANNA GO ON A HOLIDAY WITH KETHIBASHHHH!!!!

im lost w/o her man

2009-11-24T17:45:00.000-08:00

CAN YOU TELL ME IF YOU DUN LOVE ME AGIK?

CAN YOU TELL ME IF YOU DUN NEED ME AGIK?

CAN YOU TELL ME IF YOU DON WAN ME TO TEXT YOU AGIK?

CAN YOU TELL ME IF YOU DUN WAN ME TO BOTHER YOU AGIK?

CAN YOU TELL ME IF YOU GOT SUM1 ELSE ALREADY?

AND CAN YOU PLEASE TELL ME IF YOU DUN WANNA C MY FACE ANYMORE!

PLS PLS TELL ME.

I FEEL SO KENTAL, TRYING TO BE NICE BUT NOT APPRECIATED MAN.

MAYBE MUM'S RITE BEFORE.

IM A FOOL TO MY OWN SHADOW MAN.

" if you miss me at nite, luk at e moon k. but if in e day , just luk at e sky as it will rotate 2 me k. i love you"

wen i do this, people think im crazy talking to myself. but they duno tat im tokin to u rite:'(

girl, i'll still wait for ur text every single day ok.

even though i noe ur puttin me aside already.

c, yan's crazy.

SOON HE WILL BE.

cause JIWE dun kiare abt YAN already.

TO KETHIBASH.

2009-11-19T09:00:00.000-08:00

IF YOU'RE ANGRY WITH ME FOR ANYTHINK. I'M SORRY MAN. I NEED YOU. NOT THAT FAKE SMILE. NOT THAT FAKE CONVERSATION. NOT THAT FAKE TEXT. I NEED YOU GIRL. I SO NEED YOU.

HOW I WISH IM BRAVE ENUF, TO JUST HOLD UR HAND AND SAY I MISS YOU. IM NOT. IM SCARED. PLEASE DUN LEAVE ME THIS WAY. I WANNA BE THERE FOR YOU. I WANA NOE ABT UR WHERABOUTS. I WANNA NOE WHO YOU GO OUT WITH. I STILL WANNA NOE ALL THAT. I WUN STOP YOU ANYMORE. I JUS WANNA NOE.

I NOE I HAVENT TREAT YOU GUD NOWADAES. ME WITH MY FARKING GRUMPY ATTITUDE. IL JUS GET ANGRY AT YOU. IL JUST SHUT UP AND DUN ENTERTAIN YOU. IM SORRY. I SAID BAD THINGS TO YOU. I DUN UNDERSTAND YOU. I SAID FUCK. I SAID BABI. I SAID WHATEVER I WANNA SAE WITHOUT EVEN THINKIN. I PUNCH UR HAND. I SLAPPED UR FACE. I SHOULDNT HAVE DONE THAT MAN. IV NEVE DONE THAT BEFORE.

YATATA, I NEED YOU. PLEASE GIVE ME ANOTHER CHANCE TO BE THAT JIWE AGAIN. IM BEGGING PLEASE. I WILL CHANGE. I WANNA SHARE THINGS WITH YOU. I WANNA LAUGH AND MAKE SILLY JOKES. I WANA BE THAT IMPORTANT PERSON. I WANNA BE SUMBODY MAN.

IM NOT USELESS PLEASE. I JUST NEED YOU TO BE AROUND. I WUN GO BEK LATE AT NITE. I WUN DRINK. I WUN BE THAT IRITATINK YAN. I WANNA BE GUD. I WANNA BE THAT JIWE AGAIN. I WANNA MISSED BY YOU. I WANNA MAKE YOU HAPPY. I WANNA SEE THAT SINCERE SMILE. YOUR BEAUTIFUL SMILE.

PLEASE GIRL, DUN LEAVE ME.

I NOE UR NOT MINE NOW, WILL YOU GIVE ME A CHANCE TO SAY THINGS WHICH ARE SUPPOSED TO COME OUT FROM MY BLOODY MOUTH YEARS AGO?

WILL YOU GIV ME THAT CHANCE?

I DUN NEED YOU TO CUM BEK, I NOE THAT WUN HAPPEN.

I JUS NEED YOU TO BE AROUND.

WILL YOU KETHIBASH?

WE'LL TALK ON THE 4TH OKAY?

I PROMISE YOU. I JUST NEED YOU TO LISTEN.

ITS NOT NEEDED. I JUST NEED TO LET IT OUT.

CAN I?

IF YOU READ THIS, REPLY YES OR NO TO MY PHONE.

I'LL DO ANYTHINK TO PROOF TO YOU I NEED YOU MAN.

IM NOT SUPERMAN, I WUN FELING2 IM SUPERMAN ANYMORE.

IM YAN. AND I WANNA B TAT YAN U NOE A FEW YEARS BACK.

APART FROM MY FLABBY STOMACHE AND TEMBAM PIPI.

AND THAT IRITATINK USED TO MALU2 NAK MAKAN PERSON.

I PROMISE IL BE THAT YAN AGAIN. THAT YAN WHO CAN MAKE YOU HAPPY.

THAT YAN, WHO WILL SAE HE WILL BOMBED OR BAKAR UMA OWG YG DISTURBED YOU.

THE YAN WHO SAED HE WILL SEND A CHAUFER TO UR PLACE TO PICK YOU UP. LIKE MCM PAHAM.

THE YAN WHO DRESSED UP TO TOWN. THE YAN WHO WILL PRPOSELY WEAR SO MUCH PERFUM EVERYTIME HE NOES HE;S MEETING YOU.

THE YAN, WHO DUN MAKI YOU.

THE YAN HU ALWAES PULL BEK HYS HAND EVERYTIME HE FEELS LIKE SLAPPING YOU.

THE YAN HU DUN WEAR SLIPPER TO TOWN.

THE YAN HU ALWAES MEMBONTOT YOU, WITHOUT COMPLAINING.

THE YAN HU ONLI DRINKS WHEN HE'S WITH YOU.

IL BE THAT YAN.

I NEED YOU MAN.

I NEED YOU.

JIWE, PLEASE DO FORGIVE ME. IL GET RID OF MY PROBS AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.

AND WE'LL WORK TGETHER TO GET RID OF URS TOO AITE.

I'LL STOP THINKIN BUKAN2 ABOUT YOU.

BUT SURE TO PROMISE ME TO NOT THINK ABOUT DEATH.

IL BE THAT YAN.

IL BE THAT NO-TUMMY LEGONG YAN AGAIN:(

I NEED YOU.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KETHIBASH!

2009-11-04T23:40:00.000-08:00

KETHIBASH BDAE!!!

I WAS EXCITED BUT SUPRISINGLY NOT HER:( i got my off day on 3rd nov. Honestly i dun have any f**king plan for her. Im so bloody sorry. but jus to spend ample time with you. I noe ur dissapointed. im reali am sorry.

Fetch her from outram. I was late. oh man! Her mood wasnt that good also. She didnt really layan to whtever i talk about. haha. bobal sowang la gitu kan. Its okay afterall its her bdae. BUT BUT BUT honesli i was so f**ked up. haha. tahan mao lebeh.

You noe wad, when i asked her what she wanna eat. YOU KNOW WHATS HER ANX? BURGER KING! and wada fuck. haha. i noe u kne kn me. hahaha

BUT THEN AGREE TO GO TO SAKURA BUFFET. AND THAT STUPID RESTAURANT EVENTUALLI OPEN AT 6! ANOTHER MOTHER.F!

SO we walk all the way to park mall,and dine at fish n co. We ate seafd platter. and some desert and soup and all.

Next cabbed down to marina. SG FLYERS. met ayin camel there:) she likes it, but sori i didnt reali enjoy it. kinda borin to me. but with her, everything is ok. haha But still her mood doesnt change! haix.

Took 106, supposed to lepak at bb. but she went home straight instead. haix its onli 9. hmm

i was like in my heart wadahell is wrong with you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha

but 1 crazee idea jus popped up! went to westmall, grabbed ol e choc she likes from shop n save. get her a smilee cookie! and off to e flower shop. got he a stalk of red rose and a birthday card. went to polar and get her e mango cake ! again up to tom n steffanie to get a pen! and down down down. off to her block.

7th floor. and trust me i was so scared! so damn damn scared! and im perspiring like 1 fat elephant. bole perah ah baju. arrange ol e chocs properly. put e candle, i was trembling. hahhaa funni. oh man! e rose arrange it properli. and e card! funni!. my mind was so blank. and i jus scribble on it! wada fuck! hahaha i was so scared man.

took ol e chocs. left it on e doorstep! light the candles n put e cakes at e side of the choc. and yes, i was holdin on to e plastc beg. first i 4got to put e rose, next e card! hhahah. that shows how scared i was. man!and pecot turun bawa. i text her to get to e door. takot la sei tbakar tu tempat!! waduuh. she didnt rep. i was like so bloody scared.

after a wile. 1 message receive. " tanks, i kne mara btw" fuccccccccckkkkkkk!!! haha i made a mess out of everything. she called me crying cause nenek thot it was kurang aja. oh man. i tot i could make her happy but no, i made it werst.

kethibash im reli sorri. i tot it was nice. i tot u;ll lik it. but i was wrong. but u noe wad. im so proud of myself. haha. to me tat idea was nice.:) very nice. and to tv freak, im so am sorry!

AND MOTHER.F! SHE DIDNT CHANGE HER WALLET. WAD A PROMIS . SAD.

sorri again and happi bdae:)

from superman.

2009-11-04T21:06:00.000-08:00

Alright, 30th october. Was so in a rush. Met kethibash after work. Go wrap dian's bdae presie and off to mama's place. Was supposed to go back to work at 9 for my typhoid jap. BUT I DIDNT. was too engrossed talking. and fought with kethibash as usual. Kinda irritating:)

31st. Got my pay. Went breakfast with kethibash, sexayy and ais. haha. E food sucks bbut the company was fun:) TheN off to westmall arcade. hhaha another crazee adventure. After that all on separate ways. Went somewhere with kethibash. e taxi driver was super irritating~ mother. F! His cab itself stinks!

1st! Was working. Busy but i was having a split shift. Went to meet kethibash at wm. wEnt to have lunch over at KFC. Then went to eat ice cream. Then off to get tv's freak bubble tea. then go lepak for a wile. The i went off for work again. SO SAD:( MCM KEJAP GITU.

2ND! As per usual working. Then meet kethibash at mama's place. Then back. but i dunoe wats wrong with kethibash. I think she's disturbed with sumting but not telling. Its ok, i noe theres sumting u jus cannt share:)

ALrite! WILL UPDATE ON 3RD SOONNNNN!!!!

i miss HAIRI.

2009-11-01T08:36:00.000-08:00

I DUNOE Y BUT I MISS HAIRI. HAIX. HAIFY SO KESIAN. NO ONE TO BRING HIM OUT NOW. HAIRI USED TO BRING HIM O MC, MASJED AND WHERESOEVER. HAIX. I JUS DUN HAV THAT TIME. DAMN.

HE CALLED MUM A COUPLE OF DAYS AGO, GOOD TO HEAR THAT HE'S FINE. BUT BUT HE LOST HIS PHONE THERE. OH MAN, IT JUS FEEL DIFF WHEN SUMONES MISSING IN E HOUS. NOW NO COMPANY TO WATCH THAT STUPID JAPANESE GAME SHOW!

AND WERK HAS BEEN HELL TIRING. SUPER SUPER FUCKING TIRING! BUT THANKS TO KETHIBASH. SHE MAKE MY DAY:) THANKIU SO MUCH GIRL. AND SHE PROMISE ME TO CHANGE HER WALLET ON TUESDAY. 3RD NOV 2009. WE SHALL SEE!

HAHA. KLA. FOR ADEQ I MISH YOU. FOR KETHIBASH, I MISH U TOO. HAHA. OOPS! DUN GIV A DAMN. MY MOUTH I CONTROL, NOT U NOT ANYONE ELSE.

Docking, Stretching and more stretching!

2009-10-25T21:33:00.000-07:00

HELLO SG! DOMINO'S HERE! KAPOWWWW! HAHA. OK2, Grand opening was fun. Wobbling here and there was cute. Never been there before. BUT obviously was tiring. Super super tiring. We work straight hours without taking a break. HMMM. A regular pizza for 12 bucks. CRAZY OR WHAT! haha.

I found lotsa friends there. Lepaking with captain planet. Gossiping about people and GIRLS. haha. It was nice. Asking from others rokok . hahaha. CONDENSATION , EVAPORATION AND DRYING UP SOON! hahaa.When we have no break, thats when SUPERMAN and CAPTAIN PLANET work together and jus cabot from store and have our own lunch break. hahaha. and trust me it can take HOURS! Nice to meet you friend.

SO.. hmm. Kethibash was nice this few days. Suprisingly. So i guess there will be A HUGEEEEE BLOW for me soon. haha. IF URE READING THIS, PLS CHANGE YOUR WALLET! YOU NEVR USE ANYTHING I BOUGHT YOU! AND ITS SO FRUSTRATING PLUS DISSAPOINTING PLUS EVERYTHING! IF I NOE I JUS BUY U A CIPLAK2 WAN AH! NOT NICE MEH? MY TASTE SO BAD WAN AH? NO LA CANNOT BE. CANNOT CANNOT!

CHANGE LA! AND YAY YAY KETHIBASH'S B'DAE CUMINK!

AND LASTLY, HAIRI'S GUINK TO ARAB today. His flight is at 7. Adek, sorry i won't be sending you off. 7 years gonna be a super long time. Though we fought most of the time. And i alwes sae it'll be better w/o you. Go and die and stuff. I just said that out of anger. I'll miss you. There will be no one sleeping pat hall every night i come bek already. There wll be no one to fight with at hum now EXCEPT FER MUM. haha. Take care of urself alrite. DUN FIND FOLT WITH PEOPLE. UR OUTSIDE UR OWN REGION. STUDY HARD. I NOE U WUN BE KOLING ME, BUT DO KOL MAK SLALU. I NOE SHE'LL MISH YOU LOTS. AND HAIFY. WHEN U CUM BEK IL BE VERY OLD. HAHAHA. TAKE CARE. U'LL BE MISSED. AND BRING UP OUR FAMILY NAME OK? IV ALREADY BROUGHT IT DOWN. YOU SHOULDNT DO THE SAME. LOVE YOU MAN. BUT BUT BUT STOP BEING SO ARROGANT UZTAZ HAIRI! HAHAHA. and this is my sleke brother. UZTAZ HAIRI.

haha

Kla, il c u guys sooon. Sorry no phtos. Ice tak upload2!

62226333 CALL DOMINOS!

2009-10-18T08:18:00.000-07:00

HElooooooo! Iv been so tired with work.SUCK. but can la can la. hahaha. I CAN'T WAIT FOR MONEYYYY!! PAY DAYY!! haha. Kethibash dun weri, we'll share okay.

And have been meeting my friend for the last few days. Nice. Fun as always. They're so niCE! AND THURSDAY IS DOMINO'S GRAND OPENING! AND I CAN'T WAIT FOR THAT DAY SO MUCH! Wednesday Domino's are giving free pizzas to our friends. LOTSA PIZZA! WEE.

Been meeting kethibash this few daes. Okay la. bole la kan. haha. No comment. MCM HALOO. BOLE KENAL2? HAHAHA. MCM GITU LA KAN. TAKPELA. Owang pon nk jadi happy kan. SILEKAN.... HAHA. Don't worry you.

HOW ARE YOU KETHIBASH? FINE THANK YOU. HOW ARE YOU YAN. FINE THANK YOU. HAHAHA.

but his morning was fun. HAHA. Takde chance agik ar u. Nk maen tumbok2 pon jalan. hahah. SOWIE KETHIBASH, I NOE IT WAS HARD. HAHAHA. SORRYYYY!!!! N YEST WAS NICE OLSO. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

KETHIBASHHH... WATEVER HAPPEN, HAPENS. HAHAHA.

AND I NEED ANOTHER TATTOOOO!!!!

BADLY!!!!

HAHHAA. BUT KETHIBASHHHHH NO MORE PIERCINGGGGGGGGG!!! HAHA

KLA KLA. PENAT .

BE BACK BE BACK.

fer once let me be happy can.

2009-10-10T20:49:00.000-07:00

i heard i heard i heard. hmm. sumone took over 7. wao! CONGRATULATION. But im super pissed:) haha.

But to hell with it. My 7's dead. My gf's dead. My jiwe 's dying soon. haha.

Okay, first of all work is not that nice. Cant wait for 19th, so i can start making pizza!:)

The people there was nice. Now i think they know me better than kethibash:)

Met kethibash fer the last few daes. BUT we kinda fought most of the time. So yeah.

AND KETHIBASH, YOU'RE RIGHT I CAN'T MOVE ON. BUT I CANT HELP IT I DIDNT DO ANYTHING WRONG AND THAT SO SUDDEN BREAK UP.

ARG. ITS SIMPLE FOR YOU, IT AINT FOR ME. HAHA. LIKE I SAID BEFORE. WHTS SO GOOD ABOUT YOU? YOU DO SHIT WEN UR STILL WITH ME. BUT WHY IS THERE O FEELING OF HATRED. HAHAHA. I CANT BELIEVE MY LIFE. THE OTHER GUIN TO MAMA'S PLACE, IN E BUS I ASKED FER THE TIME. I TURNED U COVERD UR PHONE. HAHA. I SAW THERES A MESSAGE . SHE'S HIDING SUMTING. JENG JENG JENG.BUT FUCKING STILL. I CAME AND FETCH U AFTER WORK.. IM STUPID. CUMMON YAN, LEAVE HER ALONE!!!!! GO GRAB OTHERS!! NO NO NO. GO WORK HAVE MORE MONEY! AND PEOPLE WILL COME. WITHOUT U FINDING. IF THIS 1 VERY THING THAT I WANT IT TO HAPPEN, REALLY DO HAPPEN. CAN I COME AND WRECK YOUR RELATIONSHIP? HAHAHAH. YOU KNOW IM NOT THAT BAD:) DON' WORRY.

NOW MY GOAL IS SPEND ALL THE IME I CAN WITH HER, BEFORE SOME GUY TAKE OVR. AND BYE BYE.

AND AND AND PLS DUN TINK IM STILL HERE COX I WANTED TO HAVE MY ROUNDS. THATS NEVE TRUE.

AND AND AND, I WISH I CAN GO BACK TO KL, JUS T HAVE YOUR SUPER NICE MESSAGES EVERY SINGLE DAY:'(

AND NOT JUST GOODNIGHT. HAHA. SERIOUSLY. IF I CAN GO BACK TO KL. I WILL. YOU'RE 2 DIFF PERSON. WHY? CAN I HAVE THAT ANS?

And Freina, i know its hard on you. i know u missed him so much. i know ur regretted saying nutink the day he was brought away. I know it was so sudden for you. You wasnt expecting anything. But we have to think positive. When he's back, he promised u sumting very precious. Sumting u want with him. Hopefully he learnt his lesson. And change for the better. We'll wait together aite. Cause i cant wait to attend my bestfren wedding too. hahaha. Don't worry, we'll always be there for you aite. just text me if u nid anything:)

AND LASTLY. DEAR GOD, LET ME BE HAPPY PLS PLS PLS PLS. AMIN.

2009-10-06T07:14:00.000-07:00

IM STILL FUCKED UP WITH LIFE! WITH EVERYONE! HOW?

AND EVENTHOUDH I SPEND MY COMEBACKS WITH YOU.

I DUUNO WHY I STILL FELT SO LOST.

AND TO ME THAT 3RD STILL SUCK.

AND TANKIU FER MY 4TH.

AND YEAH. GDLUCK IN FINDING LOVE.

YOUR LETTER REPLY WAS NICE TO READ.

BUT. FERGET THAT.

AND SHOULD I TREAT U AS PER NORMAL?

BUT UR FINDING LOVE.

SOMETIME I JUS WNDER AM I STILL A DISTURBANCE.

WILL I BE HURT MORE IN FUTURE?

HAIS THIS IS THE THING HATE WHEN I NOE IM COMING BEK HUM .

UR NICE, U ARE MY WONDERS.

I DUN WISH TO LOSE U. BUT I DUN WANNA GET HURT.

HAHA. SUMTIMES IM TOO ENGROSSED IN U TILL I FERGOT TAT IM JUS LIKE ANY OF UR OTHER FRENS.

I FERGOT THAT 7 DUN APPEAER ANYMORE.

LONG GONE.

I FERGOT THAT NO MORE RINGS HANGING ON UR SMELLY NECK.

I FERGOT THAT U DUN KISH MY HAND NOW WEN U SALAM ME.

I FERGOT THAT I CANT LOVE U ANYMORE.

HAIS. BBUT I DO MISH U LOTS.

BELOM LEPAS AGIK MISH YG SBULAN TU.

THANKIU FOR MISSING ME.

THANKIU ASKING ABOUT ME.

THANKIU FOR MISSING ME.

THANKIU COX UR WILLING TO ACOMPANY ME TO KAKAK, MAMA'S HOMIE.

THANKIU FER SPENDING UR 4TH WITH ME.

THANKIU. CAUSE I SWEAR UP TILL MY VERY TODAY.

I STILL LOVE YOU THE SAME WAY .

NO LESS, MORE INFACT.

IM SORRY, BUT I CANT HELP IT.

I NOE I'L GET HURT REAL SOON.

BUT HOW. GOD'S NOT HELPING.

AND SOME OF UR LETTERS WEN I RE-READ.

CAN MOVE ME TO TEARS.

IM SORRY I LEFT U.

I PROMISE NO MORE MONEY ISSUES IN FUTURE.

STRTING NEXT MONTH.

FUCKED UP.

2009-10-02T12:57:00.000-07:00

KL trip was bad. but true great heroes save our daes. ABG ZAKI, ABG KAMARUL, ABG JOE. KAPOW!! haha. who are we? DOMINOS PIZZA. what are we? NUMBER 1. what do we do? SELL MORE PIZZA HAVE MMORE FUN. SEL MORE PIZZA HAVE MORE FUN. KAPOW! KAPOW! KAPOW! hahahah!!!

The hang around was great . THE BEERS, LIQUORS MADE ME CRAZY! Every night! Like nobody's business. Late night talking. Dirty talks and all those shyt! haha. All those big boobs and booty's nigger's everywhere around our hostel. wohohoooo! Preety ladies in town. Those Arabs lik woah! Crazy man. MY CRAZY ABG'S WILL GO LIKE... FEWET. SEMAK! HAHAA . so cute.

They went crazy over their big big boobs. Its damn big! My god! And wait. The job here suck. Hopefulli we can change the situation in Singapore. We were like so damn layed out. Like seriously. Straight hours right after our Hari Raya holiday! Like wtf! BUT BUT making pizzas wa fun! And f**king CHALLENGING! From zero to heroes! YOU'RE GOING DOWN SG MANAGER. YAN'S COMING UP! HMM.

We're not really in good term with our SG managers. Except for those incredible ones. Like LULU and UNCLE BO! Lulu's cute! But abit old. She's 33! BUT BUT BUT she dun luk lik one!

Not fergettin our first dae here, so damn lonely. We wanted to run away so badly. Crazy. And we got lost on our way back to CYBERJAYA! Funni experience! Yet scary. You know MALAYSIANS! haha. PEROMPAK HARAM! hahaha.

AND YESH, I MISH MY SPECIAL GIRLFRIENDS SO MUCHH! Got to talk to freina afew times. haha. MISH YOU PEOPLE. Just counting hours. yehaaaa! KETHIBASH! I TINK YOU GOT BF ALREADY RITE. HAIYA NVM LA. I GIVE UP . THINKING TOO MUCH IS BAD FOR HEALTH. FOR ME. THINKING BOUT YOU CAN MAKE ME CRAZY, STRESS OUT AND YEAH. SORRY FOR THIS. YEAH. BUT BUT BUT. I DO MISH YOU REALLY. BUT WHAT TO DO. HAIX! SAD OSO NO POINT LA!

PEOPLE!!! I smoke alot! Super alot!!!! GUDANG GARAM OL E WAY!! And BEERS! Burp burp and burp!!

OKAY LA THERES SO MUCH MORE TO TYPE. BUT IM DRINKING ALREADY. BYE BYE! THANKS ABG ZAKI FER THE LAPPIE!!

KL's trip cuming real real soon..

2009-08-31T01:30:00.000-07:00

Domino's over Sarpino's? Hmm. I have super great feelings it will be a NO. haha. KL' s trip coming real real soon. Although it gonna be like a month ONLY, fer sure im going to miss lotsa people. Beautiful special girlfriends, Suhaify Bin Sani, kakaks, all my cute babies, mama, my family. So sad. hahaha.

My first raye without all this people. For sure no merepek2 raye mesages from them. Haaiz. Lucky aisicebebeh is goingg to be with me. I take care of you, you take care of me ok. hahaha. PARTYYYYYY!!!! Smoke till MATII. hhaha.

I'll miss my bed. LIKE THERIOUSSSSS!! Will miss lepak-ing with my beautiful special gfs for sure. NO to all that for like a month? WAO!! Hope everything will turn out good. NEW JOB. NEW LIFE? WITH A STRAND OF NEW RELATIONSHIP? NEVER. HAHAHA.

The person im goin to miss most is KETHIBASH. haiz. PLS DUN CHANGE OKAY? OK? OK? I PROMISE TO RING YOU EVERY SINGLE DAY ALRIGHT. WILL MISH YOU LOTS LA! DON'T GO HOME TOO LATE! DON'T EAT TOO MUCH! HAHA. DON'T FIGHT WITH TV FREAK! AND PLS DO MISS ME. HAHA.

SORRY im LATE BOSHH!!!

2009-08-22T22:33:00.000-07:00

FASTER GET MARRIED LE PEOPLE!!!!

Its not even HIGH!

2009-08-22T22:05:00.000-07:00

HERO by Enrique Iglesias:)

2009-08-18T21:18:00.000-07:00

Let me be your hero
Would you dance,If I asked you to dance?

Would you run,And never look back?

Would you cry,If you saw me crying?

And would you save my soul, tonight?

Would you tremble,If I touched your lips?

Would you laugh? Oh please tell me this.

Now would you die,For the one you love?

Hold me in your arms, tonight.

chorus:

I can be your hero, baby.

I can kiss away the pain.

I will stand by you forever.

You can take my breath away.

Would you swear,That youll always be mine?

Or would you lie? Would you run and hide?

Am I in too deep? Have I lost my mind?

I dont care...Youre here, tonight.

chorus:

I can be your hero, baby.

I can kiss away the pain.

I will stand by you forever.

You can take my breath away.

Oh, I just wanna to hold you.

I just wanna to hold you.

Oh yeah.Am I in too deep? Have I lost my mind?

Well I dont care...Youre here, tonight.

chorus:

I can be your hero, baby.

I can kiss away the pain.

I will stand by your forever.

You can take my breath away.

I can be your hero.

I can kiss away the pain.

And I will stand by you, forever.

You can take my breath away.

I can be your hero.

This song out of a sudden pop out from

my mind. haha.

Busy wasting my damn time:)

2009-08-18T02:55:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was fun filled with laughters. Went for interviews accompanied by aisicebebeh. Then off to Sarpino's to get her pay. Suppoese to meet kethibash at 6.30pm,bukit batok. The plan was Sarpinos, send aisicebebeh to Sembawang and off to to Bukit Batok.

But everything went hu ha hu ha. End up meeting at Sembawang Plaza. Ate KFC. Thanks aisicebebeh for the advance cash:) Then off to BB.

Wah both of them super kechorable! Bought food and drinks AGAIN, sit around at Rainbow's playground. Kethibash with her "ugly duckling's egg". Aisicebebeh with her "moshi moshi sushi". Myself, as per nomal my "vitamin C..igaratte" haha.

Kethibash was like so super dee dooper extra hyper yesterday. She tried jumping from that not so high place again. BUT SHE TOOK YEARS!! till she slipped and tada . hahaha. Once and that's it. So cute. Photo's with ais. Soon alright. Play the "chang chang". Wah perspiring like hell. KETHIBASH!! Grabbed ya! haha. 1030PM kethibash left.

Left the both of us. Walked to Central to deposit money. Machine not in service. End up walking to "Pasa Biru". This is the funny part! Upon reaching, there's this F**king orange cat, somehow somewhere looks like Garlfied but the smaller version was following us. As per usual loudspeaker aisicebebeh went ARRR YAN. hahaha. I thought small garfield was following ais, buttttt that iritatink cat was "bontot-ing" me instead. I went "Argg Eeee Uuuu, SHIYAL!" Ran across the road again and again!! HELP!!! hahaha. Reminds me of that small doggie a couple of years ago!! haha Beutiful precious girlfriends remember? hhaha. AND WHAT DID AISICEBEBEH DO? LAUGH!!!! Irittating!!

But wait thats my part. After money depositing. Walking toward ice homie. AND SUPRISE!! ICE went ARGGGGGGGGGGGGG! IT WAS SO DAMN LOUD!! I WAS LIKE SO SHOCKED!! EVERYONE WAS! HAHAHAHAA! Guess who shocked her to death? THAT DAMN F**KING SMALL GARFIELD!!! HAHA. Amek kau obat! Tawekan orang agik!

Smoke for awhile. And home:)

Thank you for the day you two!!

THAT STUPID GARFIEL LOOKED SOMTHING LIKE THIS BUT SMALLER!

2009-08-17T10:26:00.000-07:00

" I'M LUCKY I'M IN LOVE

WITH MY BEST FRIEND

LUCKY TO HAVE BEEN

WHERE I HAVE BEEN "

open close open close...

2009-08-15T13:35:00.000-07:00

KETHIBASH!!! YOU WOKE ME UP AND NOW YOU'RE SLEEPING LIKE PIG!!!

I CAN'T SLEEP!!!!!!

new experience, everytime i'm with you.

2009-08-14T09:52:00.000-07:00

Last night was horrible. You know what bro, i won't even have that thought to take your precious away. HMP! How dare you scold me that way. Horrible. haha. but always forgiven:) You'r still my best friend.

TODAY! I just realised im no-superman. hahaha. Im afraid of needles. Im afraid of heights. What the f**k yan. hahaha! Met kethibash at 2, Outram. HSA building. That damn place.

And and and! We went for blood donation. Wee! haha. I was so f**k up at first, when i was forced by kethibash!

I was so scared la. Obviously. But her BUSOK face and attitude made me change my mind. HMP!

In the room, only i knew how i felt. Wow. Scary. But as usual. Act cool only, haha! I was seated next to kethibash. She act kakak2 only, step caring. ee! Your face expression made me feel worst la! hahaha She's so jealous that everyone went to me. Like gong gong, im a first timer! Kental agik. haha. Ektuali ektuali! Its not painful at all!!!!!! hahaha. i got so afraid for nothing.

About 20mins . All settled. She keep repeatin " i'm proud of you, you're so brave" hahaa. As if i've donated my head! haha You're so cute. Went SGH to eat. Her treat. Thanks girl:)

Took 174, suppose to study. BUT we went rainbow instead. Talk talk. Laugh laugh. Had fun:) JIWE BABE! haha.Then we saw this group of kids playing cathing at the playground. They climb here and there. Jumpin from 1 place to another. They left, its out turn! hahaha. Its so f**king scary la. I took almost 10mins to jump from this not so high place. hahaha. As for kethibash, worst! ive to support her. Nice! AT THE SAME TIME STUPID!!
Final minutes, we were planning to go KL this holiday. Hopefully it happens. Can't wait. Kecho-rable holiday with my LOVELY YET SO PRECIOUS JIWE! hahaha And she issssss KETHIBASH! hahaha

At about 1045, went to meet my beautiful special girlfriends and mr policeman. Had fun talking about taek telinge and idong. haha Thanks to sexayyy! I love you people so much! And thanks to sexayyy and ice ice bebeh for sending me to the bus stop:)

Not thinking at all is better than thinkin too much!

2009-08-12T10:18:00.000-07:00

Good morning blog. back back back. Miss me? haha. Things had been difficult as usual. But , handled with care. haha. hmm..

Hang out with my beautiful poeple were nice. Fun. As usual non-stop laughter. Crazy clicks. Its been a while since i hangout that late. But you people gonna heard from me about this often now. Used to change for the better and now the bad again? Not really, jus feel its better to have someone than being alone at home.

KETHIBASH, i think you're insane. Strong? Brave? Are you kidding me? hahaha. And yesh i got beautiful very special girlfriends around me. I lose you, but i'l try my super dee dooper best not to lose them ever!

No more rings hanging. Damn. To think about it, arg yan! Dun be stupid and get sad when people don't even bother to care.

The list of things i shouldnt do:

* STOP THINKING TOO MUCH

* STOP CARING SO MUCH

* STOP LOVING KETHIBASH

* STOP FEELING BAD, WHEN I'M NOT IN THE WRONG

* STOP BEING YAN , THE YAN WHO HAD THE BEST GF IN E WORLD

* STOP BEING SAD

* STOP SHEDDING TEARS

* STOP MY JEALOUSY

The list of things i should do:

* FIND A JOB

* FIND MORE FRINEDS

* FORGET ABOUT THE PAST

* DELETE WHATSOEVER PHOTOS WHICH ARE NOTE NEEDED

* SMILE MORE OFTEN

* LOSE WEIGHT

* SHOUD NOT BOTHER HER

* MORE TATTOS, BUT ERASE THE ONE ON MY LEG.

* CUT MY FINGER NAILS

* DELETE MY FB

* WIN THE CHEESECAKE COMPETITION

* TELL SOMEONE THAT, I MISS HERR

Hmm, haha. Hmm, kethibash. Hmm, can i ask you for something. Can i have both the rinngs. You lose things easily. I don't think you'll keep it either. CAN I HAVE IT PLEASE?

I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy, I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry, I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me - I’m going to smile.

2009-08-08T10:27:00.000-07:00

I AM STILL DOWN

2009-08-07T01:58:00.000-07:00

I don' care if you guys are sick with my post. I'm here, struggling to find words because i don't have anyone to talk. I'd rather pour out my feelings here than sharing with others. Sorry people. A more happy post soon alright. I promise.

I don't know why, but i can't function today. 2days ago, after that talk . I defrained myself from texting you. I want to act as if i don't care, but the truth is i do. too much. But today, w/o even realising i did text you. I got angry when im not supposed to be. Why? I even wanted to ask you out, but im not lucky.

I'M DOWN. WORST THAN ANY OTHER DAYS. I WANTED SO MUCH TO TELL YOU THAT I MISS YOU. F**K! HOW? I CAN'T HANDLE MYSELF. I'M GONNA LOSE MY MIND SOON. THAT FAKE SMILE, WON'T LAST FOREVER. I SAID CRAP TO PEOPLE WHO THINK ABOUT DEATH, BUT NOW I'M ALWAYS LIKE THEM. WHY?

I CAN'T STOP LOVING YOU! F**K MYSELF. F**K! F**K! F**K! WHY? WHAT'S SO GOOD ABOUT YOU? YOU'RE MEAN. BUT WHY AM I STILL HERE THINKING ABOUT YOU.WHY? WHY AM I SO INTO YOU? WHY F**K GOD, WHY? YOU TAKE HER AWAY FROM ME W/O EVEN THINKING HOW I'LL FEEL. AND NOW, YOU WUN TAKE HER OUT FROM MY F**KING MIND? WHY? IM PISSED. IM DOWN. F**K GOD! I DON'T WANT FRIENSHIP,I WANT LOVE! I KNOW WHY , BECAUSE IN THAT 3 YEARS . THERE' NOT EVEN A DAY WHEREBY YOURE OUT FROM MY F**KING MIND. I DON'T HAVE KOLOT MIND, IM JUST TOO AFRAID OF LOSING YOU. LIKE TODAY:'(

Dear mr MIND, can you stop thinking about her , PLEASE!

2009-08-06T20:16:00.000-07:00

THANK YOU for not telling you have a FB. And mr MIND please do me that favour. i seroiusly need a break. im tired of everything. LIKE F**KIN SERIOUS. And thank you for the meet-up yesterday.

To princess and m policeman, happy belated 11months. To myself and only myself, happy 41st month. Im starting to hate sevenn. But i dun regret liking it either.

ToAzah, be strong lil mama. Cheers. Text me if you need anything.

OK fever. F**K!

2009-08-06T09:33:00.002-07:00

HAPPY 41st

MONTHS GORGEOUS

Although we're not together for now,

can i still wish you on every sevenn? You don't seems to like that idea.Rushed home, just for that. Just an OUHK in return. THANK YOU. Maybe you just look forward to 25th, like some terms someone used.

"OFFICIAL" friends day.UNDERSTOOD.

F**K GOD

I love the phrase.

2009-08-05T19:46:00.000-07:00

something that makes a DIFFERENCE

because, by God,

there's a lot to make you ANGRY.

The cupcakes were so cute.

2009-08-05T12:47:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was nice. Spend my day at aunt's place. Helping her with all this chickies cupcakes. They were like super super cute! Mak dak, ur brilliant. haha. You said ur willing to teach me if i want to. See if i got the time. haha. Kethibash will sure show me that stupid face, confirm. haha. Hairi was there too. And and and achui asshole, mak dak of course and cik bakar cute. haha.

Isn't this pretty? Simple and gorgeous.

We're only done with the berkat. Mak Dak left with the real wedding cake.
Photos credited to DATO' M ASRUL KILAU. haha. UGLY! Achui f**king link me la! AND WHERE'S ALL THE OTHER PHOTOS!!!

i'm stuck in my own world, not knowing how to move on.

2009-08-04T04:38:00.000-07:00

Yesterday started out nice. Home till about 6. Went to meet kethibash. Ate at Pasar Biru. Then off to Rainbow. Arg now i hate this part. I just wish i didnt agree to meet her yesterday. F**K .

Okay. You wanna talk. Lets talk. You want this you want that. fine agreed. Friends? Close. Great nice. You know what i truly think? I need time girl. TIME. You felt tight, i'm truly sorry. Cummon, you want both? That gonna be hard for me. I don't start with you as a normal friend, i wanted to know you because i like you. That's the difference between u and my special girlfriends. What can i do? Do i have a choice? No.

Will i smile when i hear this in future coming out from your f**king mouth? Yan, this is whoever whoever.And whoever, this is yan, my best friend. Will i still smile? haha.

People said god knows the answer. I totally disagree with that. WHAT DOES GOD REALLY KNOWS ACTUALLY?

I don't know if i can be that person you wanted me to be. BUT I WILL TRY.

Okay enough of being sad. Met my special girlfriends too! And for sure Mr policeman. haha. But piz seems to be very quiet yesterday. SYA! STOP BULLYING HIM OK! But as for us, as usual super noisy. And world's number one clumsy girl, FARINAH. She fell! hahaha. Thats super funny you know. Like any other days, we always have each other the first thing in the morning. hahaha. Usual timing 12am, Bye. Tap tap tap. Abang Apiz kite will say, " SELAMAT MALAM " hahaha

SPECIAL girlfriends and Mr policeman. Lets have an outing, without money. hahaaha. And cigarette free day! haha. Need a time out. Jom jom..please..

" As a punishment, you have got to accompany me to my job interview!"

2009-07-29T00:56:00.000-07:00

29th July 2009. It seems that iv got lots of things to do. But thank god for not being too mean to me today. Eventually i'm still not happy with him. Sorry mr god damn it. Don't blame me, you're the fire starter.

Went for job interview at Vivo. The best thing is that iv to meet Nurul at Ochard at 4. 350pm, i was still at harbourfront. haha. But lucky i wasnt that early, i waited for her for ONE F**KING HOUR! Giget aru tao! ee!

Here's the plan actually. We were suppose to go ECP for cycling today and at the same time celebrate Nurul's advance birthday.But the girls had a change in plan. They wanted to go to Ming Arcade for karaoke instead. So i was given the most leceh job! HMP! I was so suppose to think of how to make Nurul come to town, without she knowing that they changed the plan and got a mini advance birthday celebration for her. I told her that i couldnt join them for cycling due to me having a seminar at Tanjong Pagar at 630pm. Crap. haha. And i need to meet her, to pass her present as i'll be busy throughout the next weekend. Another crap. hahaha. Luckily, she's being so GULLIBLE. It made my job so much easier! Reached at 5. I told her as a punishment she have got to accompany me for my interview. She agreed. haha. Where? Ming Arcade cash studio. As a? Supervisor. hahaha!

Nurul : Wah! Best nye kalau dapat. Nanti kite ble g karaoke free.

Grumpy toast : Haha.

Nurul : Yela, ti yul ble g karaoke free time birthday.

Grumpy toast : Hahaha. Padehal besok birthday die.

Okay enough. So we went down. The f**king mistake i made was asking the receptionist which room is Kethibash in. Her name was said out loud. Nurul heard but i just shut up n continued the plan.

Then tada.. my manager! hahaha. You've been punked nurul. Happy birthday. Sing sing sing. Crapping here and there. Birthday cake! A little bit of arguments but we had fun. About 8, went to meet Pharah and haikal. Off to Bugis to get Zai's shoes. Hush Hush Hush Hush...with the fingers on our lips! hahahaha. Btw photos is with Kethibash. Sorry.

My own special girlfriends and partners. Can we have our own Karaoke session too? Piz will say this, Argg boring. hahaha.

Kethibash shopping spree day!

2009-07-26T01:19:00.000-07:00

Met kethibash at BB,1115am. Headed to Town by bus. We took 106 there. Woah, kethibash sure got alot to share. She just can't stop talking. haha. Makcik kepoh, as usual. haha.

Reached. 2 f**king hours waiting time again! BUT somehow mr clock seems to be nice to me. Time flies so fast. haha. Tada..now kethibash's done.

She wanted to shop for Nurul's birthday presie. SO LETS GO! Here we come ION..

People were like ants. Shist! The place was so f**king pack. Woaw!

Shop number 1: Mango

Instead of finding nurul's stuff, she's looking for hers instead. THAT IS SO KETHIBASH! haha. And she just love this flairy2 baju, which i dun fancy at all. SELEKE i call that. Yucks. In the end, she bought this purple baju. Flairy2 also. DEGEL.

Shop number 2: Guess

We spent like almost half an hour here finding her wallet. Shist. We found this shiny black one, with blink2 guess letter on it. Gorgeous! BUT it's so f**king expensive! hmp! Not worth the money.

Then came to this two choices, the same design but two different colors. Black and pink. For the very first time, i asked her to go for the pink one. Common, you're only nine-teen to be! Let's look alive. Why do you want to feel old? Bright colors. ALIVE. YOUNG. Another wallet add on to the cart:)

Shop number 3: Mango again.

Kethibash! You're super iritating! Back here again. Finding for nurul's gift. She decided on buying her a wallet. Okay but WHICH?! Yes, no, yes, no! Arguments here and there. And we decided on this red one. Pretty:)

Shop number 4: Ayam penyet at Lucky plaza

SAPEDEK time. Thank you for the treat kethibash. Pedas pedas. but nice. Love it.

Shop number 5: This philipino's shop

She wanted to buy this papaya soap for mummy. Buy 2 get 1 free. She knows i know. haha. Then something happen! There's this person, trying so hard to smell a shampoo. I was talking to John on the phone. Hang up, turn. I was bursting like hell! I laugh like nobody business. When kethibash saw her, She joined me and laugh. hahahahaha! The shampoo was all over her nose! Stupid! hahahaha. Like a clown with white nose instead of red. haha.

Shop number 6: Perfume shop at level 1, lucky plaza

The sales girl there was like so PELAT! haha. Kethibash and me had fun ajok-ing people. Cute. And thanks again for the Adidas perfume. hmm. HARUM. haha

Now home time. We were already at Ochard station when her adeq called. He wants a MASH CAP. haha. Now to be continued..

Shop number 7: A shop at basement 1,Penisular plaza.

Nowadays, cap designers sucks. Ugly. We have difficulty finding a simple yet a decent, not kental cap for him. All the design were crap. At las we chose this black mash cap with a yellow A printed on it. The least it looks nice.

Shop number 8: A shop at basement 1,Penisular plaza.

Hoodies venture! For kethibash another adeq! haha. This , we have problem finding his size. Lucky my eyes was sharp enough to see this small size black hoodies. Plain, but nice:) Bought.

And now! home time. She was so tired. Kesian. We took 61 back to BB. Have a good rest kethibash. And i went to meet aisyah and john. Helped aisyah's with her hair. About 12, left, were so worn out. Now my busok bed is calling..GRUMPY TOAST..GRUMPY TOAST.. haha. Goodnight.

They were so adorable, except for one. haha

2009-07-25T22:48:00.000-07:00

Vibration again and again. Kethibash spare me please. Im tired. Supposed to meet her at 730am. Eventually i only woke up at 7pm due to that f**king irritating vibration. She's supposed to babysit that cute kepale tortoise girl, Isha while our mentel sister go for her rebonding. Kakak made a reservation as early as 830am. haha. Kakak so f**king excited la.

Met kethibash at BB, 815am. I was like so rushing for time to the extend that i took train. BUT when i reached! Kethibash was nowhere to be found. HMP! I was late but she was later. Lenggang lenggok! EE! GERAM!

Reached mama's place. I was so happy to see my darling! LYNN HANA. She's so cute and so f**king adorable.

Beautiful i call that:) Isha is still slipping. And that tortoise head baby is so BULAT! Macam nk giget! Sent dian for tuition. Home. Carry baby, help mama clean the house. Im so happy. Hana slept on my shoulder. She's so pretty!

Kakak come back. As usual eksen lawa with her hair. haha. We siap2 go IMM. Kak ina, kak ida, abg eyammie, dian, hana, baby isha, kethibash and me. Shop shop shop. Dian, why are you so naughty? ish. Then to kak ina's homie. Now im super dee dooper angry with abg! hmp! There were so many thiings to carry BUT the best f**king thing is that he left everything to the rest. HE ONLY PUSH THE PRAM! ARG! Selfish.

We hang around for awhile. Kak ina treat us to KFC. Thank you kakak. We love you. About 8, we left cause kethibash doesn't feel good. We cabbed home.

Stretched stretched. Arg im going to have an early day too tomorrow. THANKS TO KETHIBASH!

TORTOISE HEAD BABY. BABY ISHA, KETHIBASH FAVAURITE!

jalan jalan carik MP4

2009-07-19T20:50:00.000-07:00

Suppose to meet kethibash at 1045. As planned we will take bus to Town. But but but! As usual, i was late. haha. So we end up taking train instead cause she has to reach wheelock by 12. She got some appointment or something there.

Reached. And this is the boring part. Iv to wait for two f**king hours. haha. As you know sunday is MAID'S DAY IN TOWN. Disgusting. Left philipinos. Right Indonesian. Front Thailands. Back, they are the most iritating creatures brought to earth. BANGLAS. If only i can kill each one of them. I'l get hang by the government with open arm. F**K those germs.

I've never stroll around town ALONE! Kethibash you made me do it. Shist! Sat infront of Hilton, gears up. Smoke machine. An hours gone, another hour to go. Tick tock tick tock. Mr sun is getting more powerful. woow. Hot hot. Went to wheelock. 3rd storey, a famous korean salon next to Nokia. I just wanna say Thank you. They were showing BOYS OVER FLOWER ! And i jus sat there watching, minutes by minutes gone.

And yay, kethibash's done. Went Sim Lim, to survey for Kethibash's MP4. To our suprise, IPHONE is selling like hotcakes there. And its so f**king cheap. But wait, before you get tricked. Initially it's real IPHONE, made from China. haha. It looks exactly the same but obviously cheaper! Kethibash got crazy. She wants it so bad. Walk here and there, trying to compare prices and tada. This lady is selling 2gb MP4 with external memory card slot for 35bucks. She bought the blue one, it looks super nice. Different:)

Then out we go. Something happen at the bus stop. As per usual "dont wann to lose" kethibash, with full super dee dooper confidence scolded this "more expert" bus lover saying our side of bus service numberr 66 will initially end at Bedok and why the hell are we waiting here. Cummon kethibash, I knew better than you do. hahaha. We will end up at BUKIT BATOK, don't worry. She's so cute. You should have seen her MALU face. ahaha.

THIS IS THE IPHONE IM TALKING ABOUT. HAHA

A year older, is a year wiser.

2009-07-15T00:18:00.000-07:00

TODAY!!!! nothing much happen. BUT.. its my lil john's 19th birthday. Happy birthday dude. Though i don't really have anything for you, i promised i will in future aite.

He has been the best brother all along. Although nowadaes we seems far apart. He got his own problm to handle, and i got mine. He never fails to be there for me. THANK YOU . i appreciate it so much. and i mean so much.

Have fun on your birthday. May you be blessed with good health always. and wishes granted i hope. AND don't stop loving cause it's the best feeling ever!

HE'S GRUMPY TOAST BEST BROTHER

i thought "i can't live w/o you" only happens in movies.

2009-07-08T10:56:00.000-07:00

Things have not been very nice. God has overpowered everything. I miss being loved. but at the same time i couln't stop loving. The girls are my motivator. I just could not stop laughing when im with them.

LOVE is gone. But she left her twin with me. We're not working very well with each other. We fought like almost everyday. I know she can do it without me, but i'm the main problem. i can't. i need her to stand on my 2 feet. i'm sick of tears. i'm actually sick of living. But what can i obviously do? Why must there be decision making, when everything i chose will lead to mistake?

i wonder when will i be myself again. LOVE, you left too soon. i miss that ring. i miss YOU. Having you as a friend is a choice i made 3 years ago, but loving you up till this very moment is really BEYOND MY CONTROL.

THE HAVE BEEN MY BEST BUDDY ALL ALONG

i wish i can be you, BUT YOU SUCK.

2009-07-03T16:31:00.000-07:00

Besides kethibash, i still do need my family and the girls. I got a friend almost the same age as i am. only difference in months. He'll be no.1 world talker in my book of fame.

I don't understand why you have to do that to your family. Why must you hurt them that much? They are the best thing anyone could have ever asked for. She's the best mum. She knows how nowadays kids think unlike some parents. And that 2 crazy sister of yours, they are like wonders. Always with smile. Pretty heads.

That 3 nieces of yours, what wrong have they done to you? They're just 3 cute lil thing sent from above. Why must you take things that are not yours. They are kids. They know nothing! I love them, they are like mine.

Don't you ever dare hurt mama again! I'l be there! Kethibash, john and lil mama will be too!

JOB seeking is a pain in my ass!

2009-07-01T10:31:00.000-07:00

I'm jobless. FUCK! Pennyless like almost everyday. Sorry kethibash you have to spend on me. I'll pay when the time comes alright. And THANK YOU.

Job seeking sucks nowadays. Common answer they gave you after interview, " Alright sir, we'll give you a call as soon as possible". Meaning it will take years in their dictionary. Irritating. Maybe kethibash is right, i don't work hard enough in finding. BUT! nvm. i'll try harder!

Sarpinos click. I miss working with you guys.i miss counting the stock. i miss doing the opening. i miss attending to customers. i miss doing the closing. i miss cutting the dough. i miss disturbing the small kids wit you people. and i miss AJOK-ING mr ANG's pelat malay esence. haha.

N YESH I MISS SMOKING WITH YOU PEOPLE!!

NATURAL GAINED,I CALL THIS.

2009-06-29T08:05:00.000-07:00

Gained, gained and keep gaining. GRUMPY TOAST getting fatter. haha. GRUMPY TOAST even took more than 20 minutes to finish his 2.4km run. Embarassing! Even lembek2 kethibash won me! hmp! Im suppose to be the motivator, but hello! haha . Thought of the stadium made me crazy. shist! My whole body starts to ache the moment i enterd the stadium. funny.

GYM bebeh with NET. That another no-use gym partner. haha. People keep increasing the weight, but he remains at 20kg from start to the end. funny.And there's one session whereby BELLA joined us. She cycled and cycled and keep cycling just because she didn't know what to do other than that. hahaha.

Enough maybe. The moral of the story is GRUMPY TOAST have got to lose weight!! Before raye!!! if not, i wun luk gud in my baju melayu and every year white sampeng. hahaha

THIS WAS LIKE WHEN I WAS 18. PLUS MINUS HMM 2 YEARS AGO! I DUN OWN THAT TUMMY LAST TIME!!

ERRRR!!

BLOG, i lost my listening ears. Can you be her please?

2009-06-25T04:21:00.000-07:00

It's been awhile since i've been here. LOVE is no longer LOVE. That's the saddest thing that had happned. Sad. Miserable. but what can i do. or maybe what can we do.Things had been difficult since the day she left. Though we're still friend, eveything are so different nowadays. We fought almost every meet-ups.

PS: You won't change the way i am. I won't stop loving you. I can't help but wait.

SHE EDITED THIS 3YEARS AGO

i forgot i got a blogg!!!

2008-08-04T22:53:00.000-07:00

haha. i totally forgot i got a blog:p itx been a while since i upate it rite?
Many things had happened. work as per usual. strait weeks. tired. but i really need the money:(
out with friends. out with LOVE. fun laughters. LOVE is sick. so sad. boringg!! she got mad so easily. fark. haha. but i still love HER though:)

now ais's werking with me. we had breakfast every morning without fail. eat.eat.eat and get fat.
haha. Her laugh scares everyone. ais, shaheed and uncle. Mr ang's shop will eventually collapse!!
They laughed like nobody business. That's the joy in sarpinos. Our 2nd home. haha. We sweat. We have fun:)

Enough of all that. I'll start with yesterday. 4.08.08. i didnt go to work. First i was late. 2nd i was too lazy:) Before everything, dad's sick. His leg is so damn swollen. He can't even stand. He got 3 days mc. Get well soon dad! i noe u can't wait to get back to work. i stayed at home till about 6 before i went to meet LOVE. LOVE is sick too!! Why is everyone sicckkk!!! aiyo..im the only strong one here. Mr Superman. hahah.
Went bb. As usual i was late. haha. LOVE's already there. She so the seleke!! haha. oopss! sorry.
SUA KOYAKK AGIK!!! At about 9, went to meet inah,izy and aisyah at mc cc. The crazy people.
Especially inah. her crazy lame story. siao. funny though.
About 11 plus, we started packing. Aisyah's mummy koling2 already.

Brotherhood love.

2008-07-02T01:58:00.000-07:00

CONTINUE..............

NO SERVING. NO CASHERING. CUT,CUT N CUT....

BUSYYYYYYYYYY!!! BUT HE REMAINS CRAZYY...

THIS BOY BOY..ACT CUTE ONLY. AHA......

MR CLEVER!!! ASH ASH BABY..HAHA........

That's all guys. The continue of yesterday.
i'm too tired.

And i miss LOVE so much.
LOVE is guing for camp!!!!

TICK TOCK TICK TOCK..

2008-06-30T01:17:00.000-07:00

Another crazy day at work. I was late. AGAIN. haha. Im too tired to open my eyes. SIMPLY LAZY! Especially when im PENNYLESS. i just had enuf to go to work. but no worries, im just as happy. At least LOVE got enough to eat:) Reach at about 10. First only got one order. Then came another. Then more and more n MORE!

Delivery stops. Came all the stupid people. One after another. Lucky bebert was here. KITCHEN HERE I COME. I did the cutting all the way. i didnt serve, i didnt do cashering. HEAVEN! haha. MONSTER left. HELL came. PLATES. PLATES. N MORE PLATES.
Damn it. but the good ones were back:) Shaheed n sharil2 help me out. happy familyy:)

Break. As usual. Gears up. Smoke machine:) 1 stick. Next topic. Another stick. Puff puff puff!

NON-STOP! Sarpino's crazy idiots. Dont believe? Will show you later:)

I stayed till quite late. Shaheed sent me home. Batt flat. Reached, LOVE was already home.

Lucky she wasnt angry:p haha. Miss her though:( Talk for a while. But im too tired.

About 12," zZZZZZZZ "

Gudnite people. Sweet dreams:)

LOVE guing for camp soon!!!

Sad Sad

I'M HERE EVERY MORNING:)........

BIKY BIKY. N MR ANG'S PRECIOUS VAN.............