Friday, August 7, 2009
I don' care if you guys are sick with my post. I'm here, struggling to find words because i don't have anyone to talk. I'd rather pour out my feelings here than sharing with others. Sorry people. A more happy post soon alright. I promise.
I don't know why, but i can't function today. 2days ago, after that talk . I defrained myself from texting you. I want to act as if i don't care, but the truth is i do. too much. But today, w/o even realising i did text you. I got angry when im not supposed to be. Why? I even wanted to ask you out, but im not lucky.
I'M DOWN. WORST THAN ANY OTHER DAYS. I WANTED SO MUCH TO TELL YOU THAT I MISS YOU. F**K! HOW? I CAN'T HANDLE MYSELF. I'M GONNA LOSE MY MIND SOON. THAT FAKE SMILE, WON'T LAST FOREVER. I SAID CRAP TO PEOPLE WHO THINK ABOUT DEATH, BUT NOW I'M ALWAYS LIKE THEM. WHY?
I CAN'T STOP LOVING YOU! F**K MYSELF. F**K! F**K! F**K! WHY? WHAT'S SO GOOD ABOUT YOU? YOU'RE MEAN. BUT WHY AM I STILL HERE THINKING ABOUT YOU.WHY? WHY AM I SO INTO YOU? WHY F**K GOD, WHY? YOU TAKE HER AWAY FROM ME W/O EVEN THINKING HOW I'LL FEEL. AND NOW, YOU WUN TAKE HER OUT FROM MY F**KING MIND? WHY? IM PISSED. IM DOWN. F**K GOD! I DON'T WANT FRIENSHIP,I WANT LOVE! I KNOW WHY , BECAUSE IN THAT 3 YEARS . THERE' NOT EVEN A DAY WHEREBY YOURE OUT FROM MY F**KING MIND. I DON'T HAVE KOLOT MIND, IM JUST TOO AFRAID OF LOSING YOU. LIKE TODAY:'(
Labels: i miss u so much.
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